Us Compared to the World

I'm so bored and sleepy but I refuse to go to bed.  It's the weekend after all so I should at least stay up into the early morning hours (my logic).  I don't feel like watching TV or any movies or even reading.  I just want to write.  I want to write about the world, and how incredible it is.

I'm thinking about how big the world is and how small it is at the same time.  Compared to the entire universe the world is just a little speck of dust.  Isn't that something?  Even in this world we are just the most invisible fraction.  I find it fascinating.  There is so much to be explored and so much to discover and yet I am sitting here doing absolutely nothing.

We go to school or work each day and fall into mindless routines.  We stress out over what seems to be our entire world, yet when put into perspective, our troubles are so small and seemingly meaningless in the big world and even greater universe.  It almost hurts my head to think about what is out there and what else I can be doing right now.

I could be exploring a foreign place and meeting a diverse group of people.  Instead, I wake up each morning in the same place, do the same things, and talk to the same people.  Not that I should necessarily be complaining.  I'm very blessed to live in a safe place and be surrounded by mostly good people.  The bigger problem is that I want to do more.  I want to leave one day and return years later.  I want to disappear into the vast world and learn a million new lessons.

Instead of making myself into something important, I feel as if I'm making myself into what everyone else wants and expects.  It's as if I've been planted to this one spot and I need to uproot myself.  Even though we are all small on this earth, we can turn ourselves into something big.  It's all about taking that first giant step, and I'm not quite there yet.  Someday.  Until next time xxx.