First off, I was wrong. I thought I'd be the only one to love him that way and I was wrong. You love him more. Please love him more. Believe me, I loved him with everything in me, but I was too broken and sad to fully love anyone enough. I barely loved myself, but I still tried to love him. I want you to love him enough.
I think I broke him in the same way he broke me. I don't want him to be so broken anymore. I don't think he is. Love him. I hope he feels whole knowing he is loved by you. I think he is whole and he is happy and that makes me happy. I hope you love him and love him so much that it hurts. But the good kind of hurt... not the hurt I felt when I said goodbye.
Secondly, I was wrong. Did I already say that? I was so wrong. I thought it was different and not like the rest and maybe this would work out. But I was wrong as I so often am. I was so wrong, but in a weird way I hope I am right about you and him. Hopefully you will work out and the future will be simply lovely. There are too many broken hearts in this world. We don't need anymore than there already are.
Next, I want to say that I appreciate you. It probably doesn't seem like it. Hell, half the time it doesn't feel like it either. I feel anger and hatred and sadness. But truly, I appreciate you deep down in my heart. I appreciate you loving someone who once meant the whole world to me. We share that and have that in common, so I appreciate you because of that. I can't hate you for loving someone better than I ever did.
Finally, I'm going to tell you something and I hope you don't ignore it. Love him. Do not take him for granted because you aren't going to find anyone else like him. Maybe one day or somewhere else at some other point in the future but right now you two have each other so never take that for granted. Find the galaxies in his eyes and trace the map on his palm. Don't forget the blissful feeling you get when he smiles at you. Love him with your entire soul. I'm sure you're kinder than I ever was. I'm sure he loves you more than he ever said he loved me and for some reason it doesn't make me sad anymore. I'm thankful that he has found a love so great, even if it's not with me.
I hope you make him laugh a lot. I always did love that laugh. Doesn't it make your heart full?
Thanks again,
the one who tried
Until next time xxx.
Secondly, I was wrong. Did I already say that? I was so wrong. I thought it was different and not like the rest and maybe this would work out. But I was wrong as I so often am. I was so wrong, but in a weird way I hope I am right about you and him. Hopefully you will work out and the future will be simply lovely. There are too many broken hearts in this world. We don't need anymore than there already are.
Next, I want to say that I appreciate you. It probably doesn't seem like it. Hell, half the time it doesn't feel like it either. I feel anger and hatred and sadness. But truly, I appreciate you deep down in my heart. I appreciate you loving someone who once meant the whole world to me. We share that and have that in common, so I appreciate you because of that. I can't hate you for loving someone better than I ever did.
Finally, I'm going to tell you something and I hope you don't ignore it. Love him. Do not take him for granted because you aren't going to find anyone else like him. Maybe one day or somewhere else at some other point in the future but right now you two have each other so never take that for granted. Find the galaxies in his eyes and trace the map on his palm. Don't forget the blissful feeling you get when he smiles at you. Love him with your entire soul. I'm sure you're kinder than I ever was. I'm sure he loves you more than he ever said he loved me and for some reason it doesn't make me sad anymore. I'm thankful that he has found a love so great, even if it's not with me.
I hope you make him laugh a lot. I always did love that laugh. Doesn't it make your heart full?
Thanks again,
the one who tried
Until next time xxx.
