Life's Test

I'm sitting in front of the keyboard crying because I don't know what to say.  I know what I want to say, but I'm not sure how to word it.  Sometimes it's hard to describe feelings.  They aren't tangible.  They are just there inside you and sometimes there is no proper way to express them.  I can try my best.  Occasionally, writing encourages me to get my emotions out.  It's like sitting at a computer and bleeding all your feelings out into words.

Life is a test.  It isn't the sort of test you can study and prepare yourself for.  It's practically thrown at you.  There are good and bad parts of life.  There are the parts that no one understands.  When something negative is thrown at you, all you can do is ponder why something like that would happen to someone like you.  

You may not be a perfect person, no one is, but you certainly didn't deserve this.  The people you love don't deserve to be in this situation either.  It seems so senseless.  Why?  Why do these things happen to us?  They shouldn't be happening to anyone.  

You're just left standing there forgetting how to breathe.  It's like the world has momentarily frozen and everything that ever made sense is wiped away.

Bad things have happened before.  Sometimes, bad occurrences bring about positive changes.  I know this from personal experience.  It's difficult to understand that horrible events really can lead to an improved outcome.  But they can.  You simply must believe that everything happens the way it's supposed to.

Life isn't only a test you can pass, but it's a journey you create.  Sure, life is going to knock you down.  Heck, it may even take a few punches at you and throw you down a hill.  You may get some bruises and wounds.  Yet, if you stand up taller and stronger than before, you'll always win.

Yes, it can be challenging to pull yourself together and face your challenges.  Personal growth and achievement takes time.  I continue to struggle with the "why" in life.  Why has this happened?  Why?  Why did this happen to people I care about?  The list goes on.

After life beats you up, it's not always easy to pull yourself up.  What I'm working on is staying positive.  If you're able to smile when you feel like crying, you're already a strong person.

Sometimes when life closes a door, ten more open.  Opportunities flourish and hope hangs in the air like perfume.  Don't get down.  Stand right back up.  Create opportunities.  Build the life you want.  Keep your chin up.  With love, any obstacle can be overcome.  And goodness do I love my family more than anything else.  Until next time xxx.